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I wonder if I am feeling ill of sleep loss or some wrong foods.  I should try to not be mad next time I see something, but I might still have a hard time.  How will I sort out my feelings if no one cares?  What things are my blog for?

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Problem

In the car, my mom was thinking about something and she wouldn't stop and tried to make me feel guilty.  She is peaking an interest at something that's bothering me.

Problem

I just got mad at some people, but it's over now.  I was walking, and something about my neighbors bothered me.

Superstar

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Problem

My dad always acts like I deserve nothing for something stupid - I thought other people wanted me to call them a nigger.

Problem

I don't want my dad's nasty secret messages about hurting others and thinking me staying in my room he gets involved in my life, cuz he's no good at it.  He has no right to know of my private life at 27.  That's ***.

Apology

I had a hard day.  I just had words slip from my thinking they'd keep me from getting mad more.  I'll try again later.

You're just racist.

People treat me like I'm the weird 1 in the family, when I'm not, you're just racist.

No one cares.

No one cares about kids today.  I want my 80s mood.

Mad

What happened to Sean Kingston of Miami and the other people from Jacksonville, FL?

Weird

If my mom is not mushy as a female, my dad cannot replace that parent as a mom!  Girls secretly all hate that.  I will just shun him when it feels uncomfortable.

cont.

I said I had problems and found a piano job for the summer, 2 songs.

O Boo Hoo

I missed auditions.. (Mad Cow Theater - nothing planned big I like I know of now for musical theater - I have no idea what the auditions are for.  For the whole season.)

Annoyed

I am not gonna be careful for Tim Burton's daughter.  I guess I'm too old to do anything that's worth it.

Weird

I wanted to be attractive, but my parents were in my face.  I even slept with them as an infant.

Ha Ha

You'll never make it in my family.  How would you like 2 niggers as parents?  Would you shine in that family?

Blame my parents?

My mom says not to do that.

I bet they gave me dark skin.  It is a bit attractive.  I pretty much resisted being stereotyped to a certain non-race for how I looked.

Maybe, joke around with something that's more correct.

Something Strange

I sense that some people think I was like most little kids with dark features, but actually I wasn't and I'm not a Spanish girl.  Lotsa people are making fun of me, but no one makes fun of my dad for having such dark hair.  You can't just go and label me to be a certain way.  True, I didn't look like a little granny with grayish curls.  You all just wish you were me.  And I wasn't a beggar with butt-length straight mousy hairs.  I had attractive friends.

10 Years

I've been "cleaning" myself for acting, but I've both lost and gained skill over the past 10 years.

LUV

i LUV ellen

compared to others

She is so sweet and built so complexly.  Other people are like oh I'm all white I can do this..

With This

80s ring I can control you

I have an 80s heart.

I felt I was accomplished even as a music educaiton major.  I was on top of the world!  I did 5 instruments!

I think..

..the world secretly likes my old besties.

Cleaned

I just cleaned some in my room and the bathroom floor in 1 area.