Well

Am sorry for the all caps post and something I said at home, can be silly, risky, and just not really thinking anything is mean, really.  I was speaking for myself.

Oh Boo Hoo or (?)

I wanted my relationship to Ellen DeGeneres to be special and respectful.

Nice Picture

I really like Chloe Sevigny's picture.

Prayer

I pray for fans to be fans of Chloe Sevigny!  She is such a deserving person!

Superstar

Chloe Sevigny

link

Monday, May 5, 2014

Prayer

I pray that Ellen's personal relationships go well.  I pray for her fans who watch her and who are out there posting online like me.

Bed Soon!

IMDb

Those Who Kill

Re: Turned off by sexual violence?

There's actually nothing wrong with Chloe, but if you dig into what makes her who she is, .. I'll talk about a friend. She always was preoccupied around me, also from the New England area. She acted so sacrificial, still, when she wouldn't socialize properly, finding some way to blame me. It's 1 of those abstract things you sense but don't know what it really is in order to explain it. I didn't find to bring it up, but you seem to have dug deeper into the situation, LOL. I think Chloe is simply turned on by intelligence. It's so sad that these shows aren't real, Chloe is not Jensen. I also would hate if I had friends my age who dumped me, which they did, but for other girl friends. Lotta us wanted kids in our 20s for some reason. I think Chloe is like a paper towel, a leading brand, cleans up all the mess. You're done with the mess, it goes in the garbage. It's what it is, it's a mess..

Looking for an Apology

Well, here's 1, as I've been trying to recover.  I should just mind my own business.  That social group today seemed to have helped for now.

Mobile

may or may not post

Problem

I tried getting away from home so Ellen would not follow my blog, though it gives me pleasure. I didn't get in a movie and kicked outta theater. I don't wanna be a glob for others to waste time on. I require a real life experience.

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Problem

My parents need not be involved in certain ways, like a big blast on my wit in private with them.

All I experience is guilt to be happy about someone who gives me affection somehow.

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Problem

So, I have to accept Ellen won't be nice, like Burton and Depp, a lot of ways/times. I didn't start it. If she was kidding, I forgot to ignore. She sure gets upset for nothing. No offense.

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Unimpressed

I was called a person I didn't want to be.



I DON'T HAVE ANY PROBLEMS.

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Problem

Ellen keeps insinuating I'm a little tan Asian kid. I already said I don't take that. She shouldn't care what I say. If she likes that stuff, so be it for her. A light just turned on I wasn't sure I noticed before.

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TV

This morning saw some of Colbert, this afternoon some of Bethenny.



Also threw up. The food was squeezing and hurting my spine. Not as bad this time. Ate some since.

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Should I?

Is my time being wasted?  I haven't even accomplished having a blog nor working on my college major.  I get "corny" drama from the day of people in my life all making it so I cannot achieve alone apart from with them.  Talking to each other all tackily like it's so bemusing against me.

Issue

I wasn't even talking to Ellen, and she doesn't listen to me cuz she thinks she's popular and she's racist somehow.

I was communicating for my blog about ^what^ she did, pretended ^something^ about me.

She was acting mean like I was no good and she was something.

Upset

If Ellen stopped communicating to me, don't I have a right to be sad .. or rebel?  Probably to her rebelling would mean being mean.  I mean like making a plaque.  Because all I did was I said you ain't got nothing on me meanie, and she figured she can think it's written to her when I didn't reveal it was and .. she thinks it's my initial reaction in thinking this, when in fact I felt that but didn't mean that, didn't say I meant that.  I think she was taken aback because she lives by numbers 1-9.  It's her show, and she can decide to do it, but she can't make me feel guilty for doing it.  How dare she.. see she'd not like me to continue.  That's the kind of thing, and she just stops.  I think she's just racist.  -I'll think of all she done for me, but I wish I hadn't yet even met- which isn't a good thing, neither.  I've made suggestions for her to talk to others but remember me.. which didn't mean anything to her she made up I found|figured.. that she spends too much on me and I now question the reasoning behind something of the essence of it.  Well, my life is on my blog, so whatever she does.  I found it thoughtful, but I mean I know she wants people to be happy and then she's happy.. she doesn't wanna go and die with the world so bad.  She gets upset if I don't love and respect her.  I was really mad, and that's something she doesn't want.  I found what she said 1st insulting.  I think people get I am not a kid and don't wanna be punished.  I mean, I am too old to pick up, is that the point?!!  I have more of a care for adults.  I would not wanna meet Ellen cuz she'd say I'm too old to be her kid and someone else-ISN'T.  There would be a spark and calculation that she has some better traits than me, and it'd go to her.  Well, okay, you can read through this now getting a bit lengthy.  I just wanted to say I felt what I felt but I didn't feel that's "what" I wrote.  I can kinda see it now.  It wasn't anything but a feeling.  I am insulted I guess by something I agreed to, that I be treated worse than others.  Can you explain that?  Now, I'm bad supposedly?  That's what I don't take with anyone, that suddenly maybe the bad people were mistreated so that means good people go to Hell.  That's a sin.  I think Tim Burton and Johnny Depp did it.  Remember?  They tell other bad people to be comfortable and have an intellectual drug on people who are not famous who are good?  Then racism??  What do you think of Ellen saying I was bad at 1st.. what was it?  I know she doesn't have something going and is afraid to click with others.  I didn't say literally she has nothing going.  I can't imagine her talking to me and someone else - it'd just be a competition.  I found it like horrific she like "plastered" herself up as being nice to me.  Yer mean, guess ye own up.  But she wasn't.  She acted like being mean to me was nice.  There was a secret message.  It was just too much, not used to stuff or letting go some.  Rubbing in like I'm behavioral exemplified trash like she just messed up on me.  Why don't we tie her on a stake and get her to admit she is flawed?  No offense!!  So.. this was sad.  I didn't continue and felt bad and she just got mad.  I was mad after supper, though, so what?  I don't need to be weird for anyone.  It's just too bad she doesn't take apologies.  I'm not even talking to her face.  I'm describing something important.  She was bugging me to make me look bad.  She is oddly nice.  I hope things are going well for her..

Ate

I ate 6 times today.

Nutra Bullet

It can reverse aging cuz it opens up cells of vitamins.  Compared against juicers.

How much-

Look how much Wen they pump in their hands.  3|

For Later

I'm getting machines, 1 that turns plain fruit into an ice cream and 1 that turns it into juice, called a juicer.  You can also use veggies, often used with juicers.  I'm also using my allowance to eat out.  I found cool food at the grocery, too, started making wraps.  I so want a Muffalatta.  It's Italian-New Orleanian.

New Twitter

Breaking Up

Would you say that I have a relationship with Ellen, if you think about tabloids?