Leave me alone. I hate my old friends, world.
Why? People think things mean all this retarded shit, like oh I was silent then, then connect some other thing because of that..
Thursday, May 8, 2014
You guys just can't resist yourselves.
If Ellen does something, she HAS to have it in the end, in your opinion. How sick. I don't need her. I am cool by myself.
Wow
You all think you can torture me - Ellen DeGeneres, my mom, my dad, others. DID YOU GET WHAT I JUST SAID?
Problem
Someone in my room said Chloe Sevigny called me stupid. What a lie! You can't do this to me!
Why I Did It
Because she made me mad and also she couldn't do anything about it but also because I literally didn't approve of my dad's ways and he wasn't my husband.
I guess..
..my dad has a secret of wanting those around him to be crap, so don't worry if you hurt his feelings.
Moreover
Ellen is repeatedly not treating me like others like I'm perfect. What did I ever do? My blogs are meaningless because of her. She did it! I didn't make it up and insult her.
Problem
My mom just made me so mad. Why? She can't do that! She's the 1 who had me and took care of me when I was born.
I was talking about Ellen and how I saw her being sappy with Obama. She acted all annoying when I said well maybe Ellen didn't do this 1. Look Ellen, you're on the bad side now. Get it? Stop telling me I am!
Do you need to ask me what you did?
Also, I acted like my mom was more like my dad when she acted like I was. Shoulda connected it with the fact that there are some good things to him. She really vies for him. She just stopped cuz she could and used it to annoy me, again. I never wanted to be like him. He did it when I left the room.
I was talking about Ellen and how I saw her being sappy with Obama. She acted all annoying when I said well maybe Ellen didn't do this 1. Look Ellen, you're on the bad side now. Get it? Stop telling me I am!
Do you need to ask me what you did?
Also, I acted like my mom was more like my dad when she acted like I was. Shoulda connected it with the fact that there are some good things to him. She really vies for him. She just stopped cuz she could and used it to annoy me, again. I never wanted to be like him. He did it when I left the room.
Problem
I will not reduce myself to submit to Ellen DeGeneres in old age. I never watched her, never ^liked^ her cuz she was too popular. If you all are still interested in me as a kid, you're too late. I'm an adolescent. If you're still interested, come with something, not some problem to define the meaning of feeling. Where'd you extract that and who for - Johnny Depp? I have nothing to do with Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. I seen you make movies coordinate me in them, though. What an insult that would be to say, people kinda trashed it anyway, online I'm guessing, cuz most people kinda liked it just felt bad.
Ellen does not get no. I'm at this nonsense each and every day. If not, I'd be at someone who is not present in daily life, Tim Burton. Let's fix her. She has to admit we're like her children.
Ellen does not get no. I'm at this nonsense each and every day. If not, I'd be at someone who is not present in daily life, Tim Burton. Let's fix her. She has to admit we're like her children.
Ate
I had a hot dog, noodle soup, wheat crackers (brown ice, sweet potato, sea salt - Triscuits,) and a squash cut up and cooked with butter. And water. When I woke up I had a pop tart, chocolate with cream.
Wow
Sounds like you could kill celebrities with Obama's foreseeable prediction. That's gonna be why they don't do it, probably, not sure. That's rather pathetic. I think they did it cuza me cuz I'm pretty good, but they just want me to feel bad like everyone else. Ellen probably thinks it has nothing to do with it. She refuses to be nice to the world. I guess we have no one on top but Burton and Depp.
Question
How do we know if Ellen's acting like a baby talking to Obama or not cuz it seems like it and therefore she is acting like a baby. If she doesn't like something I do, she thinks she can tell Obamacare to implant a microchhip in every American's hand. I'm revoking my citizenship.. Me xi co? Ca na da?
I'm not being mean, though maybe she is. I just am bringing up an important topic that determines the lives of the sheep of the world.
She has no right to chase me. She is notorious for being wrong and mean, not the people who are excited to meet her. :(* I already said I was careful cursing around her in the same place.
I'm not being mean, though maybe she is. I just am bringing up an important topic that determines the lives of the sheep of the world.
She has no right to chase me. She is notorious for being wrong and mean, not the people who are excited to meet her. :(* I already said I was careful cursing around her in the same place.
Problem
How perverted is it that Obama says we might get microchips in our hands but like say it was your fault and someone told him to say that and he listens? This world is turning into filth.
I hope no one overly sensitive attempts to interpret this, the words "perverted" and "filth." It's just the way people talk, politicians..
I hope no one overly sensitive attempts to interpret this, the words "perverted" and "filth." It's just the way people talk, politicians..
Something Came Up
I thought of Chloe Sevigny. I know Tim Burton would still like me better but not really.
I might be good for my age. xp And generation. I'm a bit to typical. People are so mean my age, like why're you like that we all hate you realy? What if we were all like that? ..Um, what?
I might be good for my age. xp And generation. I'm a bit to typical. People are so mean my age, like why're you like that we all hate you realy? What if we were all like that? ..Um, what?
Yes
Why is my *** dad keeping an eagle eye on me? He's a good guy. He's doing things just to touch on topics, like little clues I see my parents leave etc. I don't know why it seems he's the sponsor, all of a sudden of it all. People keep inserting themselves into my life.
Yes, I was very mad. He seems at me.
Yes, I was very mad. He seems at me.
Wednesday, May 7, 2014
Who Earns What
I feel I've missed out on THEE experience because of my race. I was fine. People who succeed are all white.
I win.
I do not need to take from others for myself in competition for others.
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Like Shit, Teens Today
I know that teens shit on people because they're shit and think that someone did something that made them look bad.
Problem
I got a message from Ellen saying to wrap my mom up like a dead hamster in newspaper. Also, she had a hamster on her show eating something I ate. She has no right to tell me to eat Chinese. I AM WHITE.
So, who is it?
Is Ellen the 1 wanting these weird things to happen cuz I just figured it was my mom?
Bad People
They just want the people born around 1960 so they can ge the candy. My family is nothing.
"Say you'll share with me 1 love, 1 lifetime.."
No, I won't share the funny moments my dad has. Also, he has indian, so what's wrong with that? It's not even black, which is more different in the bone structure.
I sometimes find him effeminate. He has good moments and bad moments. He covers things up.
I just detected it's hard for him being born in 1950, like an illness.
I sometimes find him effeminate. He has good moments and bad moments. He covers things up.
I just detected it's hard for him being born in 1950, like an illness.
Problem
If Ellen is just mean to me, why do I end up watching her without saying a word? Wait, sometimes she can be nice. No one ever said I was bad, and I don't want this to be a 1st. It's hard to explain, but it seems she's just some bad kid messing with other people, a ha ha ha, or like these little messages that I know I get. Well, what sparked this was 2 things, 1 was something someone else rubbed in. You can't get mad at me..cuz I'm surrounded by this it seems, seems like a trick. I won't buy it.
Problem
They are talking to me and it makes my whole face freeze up like they're staring up close. Why not not be mean?
It makes me wanna explode and hit something. I want to get away. I have no choice. I can't get them to stop like before.
It makes me wanna explode and hit something. I want to get away. I have no choice. I can't get them to stop like before.
How do you feel?
Do you feel trampled on, like maybe you will never be famous and therefore amount to nothing? People live with a dream all can be famous in some way, which is true, most likely. Why is Ellen like that, like now she isn't really friendly in the normal way of acting. She used to just be offensive to people who were different. I'm putting up with jokes that shouldn't mean anything via her and others.
Something that did upset me was how I don't see the ending of "The Ellen DeGeneres Show," when you see the legs crossing and someone like her gets to say, "Anyway." Why are you all acting like her and Johny Depp and Tim Burton get what us young adults deserve? So, I did see it, gladly, after "Bethenny." You see the big Warner Bros. symbol, as well. You all are so annoying, you people in Pixar, thinking it's only about Ellen, like she's a baby. I'm not having fun in this shit hole. The whole world decided they knew and didn't like me. I'm building up something that you all don't do.
Ellen slips in little insulting messages, like because I'm too old for her show, supposedly. I'm not. It's just I don't have what I need.
My mom was inflicting annoying things to me today, too. I don't wanna play this with her. Just admit it, Ellen is being mean. I can't say anything cuz I don't know what to say. She is making fun of me like I'm like everyone else..
They just made the mouse do something, too. Now, they're doing something else on the screen. Now, something weird happened. Now, they are attempting to talk to me. Funny, huh? This is not my life, I want people in my life not like this. What you say about me is wrong. You just did something, again.
Something that did upset me was how I don't see the ending of "The Ellen DeGeneres Show," when you see the legs crossing and someone like her gets to say, "Anyway." Why are you all acting like her and Johny Depp and Tim Burton get what us young adults deserve? So, I did see it, gladly, after "Bethenny." You see the big Warner Bros. symbol, as well. You all are so annoying, you people in Pixar, thinking it's only about Ellen, like she's a baby. I'm not having fun in this shit hole. The whole world decided they knew and didn't like me. I'm building up something that you all don't do.
Ellen slips in little insulting messages, like because I'm too old for her show, supposedly. I'm not. It's just I don't have what I need.
My mom was inflicting annoying things to me today, too. I don't wanna play this with her. Just admit it, Ellen is being mean. I can't say anything cuz I don't know what to say. She is making fun of me like I'm like everyone else..
They just made the mouse do something, too. Now, they're doing something else on the screen. Now, something weird happened. Now, they are attempting to talk to me. Funny, huh? This is not my life, I want people in my life not like this. What you say about me is wrong. You just did something, again.
Tuesday, May 6, 2014
Hm
I wonder if I am feeling ill of sleep loss or some wrong foods. I should try to not be mad next time I see something, but I might still have a hard time. How will I sort out my feelings if no one cares? What things are my blog for?
Problem
In the car, my mom was thinking about something and she wouldn't stop and tried to make me feel guilty. She is peaking an interest at something that's bothering me.
Problem
I just got mad at some people, but it's over now. I was walking, and something about my neighbors bothered me.
Problem
My dad always acts like I deserve nothing for something stupid - I thought other people wanted me to call them a nigger.
Problem
I don't want my dad's nasty secret messages about hurting others and thinking me staying in my room he gets involved in my life, cuz he's no good at it. He has no right to know of my private life at 27. That's ***.
Apology
I had a hard day. I just had words slip from my thinking they'd keep me from getting mad more. I'll try again later.
You're just racist.
People treat me like I'm the weird 1 in the family, when I'm not, you're just racist.
Weird
If my mom is not mushy as a female, my dad cannot replace that parent as a mom! Girls secretly all hate that. I will just shun him when it feels uncomfortable.
O Boo Hoo
I missed auditions.. (Mad Cow Theater - nothing planned big I like I know of now for musical theater - I have no idea what the auditions are for. For the whole season.)
Annoyed
I am not gonna be careful for Tim Burton's daughter. I guess I'm too old to do anything that's worth it.
Weird
I wanted to be attractive, but my parents were in my face. I even slept with them as an infant.
Ha Ha
You'll never make it in my family. How would you like 2 niggers as parents? Would you shine in that family?
Blame my parents?
My mom says not to do that.
I bet they gave me dark skin. It is a bit attractive. I pretty much resisted being stereotyped to a certain non-race for how I looked.
Maybe, joke around with something that's more correct.
I bet they gave me dark skin. It is a bit attractive. I pretty much resisted being stereotyped to a certain non-race for how I looked.
Maybe, joke around with something that's more correct.
Something Strange
I sense that some people think I was like most little kids with dark features, but actually I wasn't and I'm not a Spanish girl. Lotsa people are making fun of me, but no one makes fun of my dad for having such dark hair. You can't just go and label me to be a certain way. True, I didn't look like a little granny with grayish curls. You all just wish you were me. And I wasn't a beggar with butt-length straight mousy hairs. I had attractive friends.
10 Years
I've been "cleaning" myself for acting, but I've both lost and gained skill over the past 10 years.
LUV
i LUV ellen
compared to others
She is so sweet and built so complexly. Other people are like oh I'm all white I can do this..
compared to others
She is so sweet and built so complexly. Other people are like oh I'm all white I can do this..
I have an 80s heart.
I felt I was accomplished even as a music educaiton major. I was on top of the world! I did 5 instruments!
Monday, May 5, 2014
Well
Am sorry for the all caps post and something I said at home, can be silly, risky, and just not really thinking anything is mean, really. I was speaking for myself.
Prayer
I pray that Ellen's personal relationships go well. I pray for her fans who watch her and who are out there posting online like me.
IMDb
Those Who Kill
Re: Turned off by sexual violence?
There's actually nothing wrong with Chloe, but if you dig into what makes her who she is, .. I'll talk about a friend. She always was preoccupied around me, also from the New England area. She acted so sacrificial, still, when she wouldn't socialize properly, finding some way to blame me. It's 1 of those abstract things you sense but don't know what it really is in order to explain it. I didn't find to bring it up, but you seem to have dug deeper into the situation, LOL. I think Chloe is simply turned on by intelligence. It's so sad that these shows aren't real, Chloe is not Jensen. I also would hate if I had friends my age who dumped me, which they did, but for other girl friends. Lotta us wanted kids in our 20s for some reason. I think Chloe is like a paper towel, a leading brand, cleans up all the mess. You're done with the mess, it goes in the garbage. It's what it is, it's a mess..
Re: Turned off by sexual violence?
There's actually nothing wrong with Chloe, but if you dig into what makes her who she is, .. I'll talk about a friend. She always was preoccupied around me, also from the New England area. She acted so sacrificial, still, when she wouldn't socialize properly, finding some way to blame me. It's 1 of those abstract things you sense but don't know what it really is in order to explain it. I didn't find to bring it up, but you seem to have dug deeper into the situation, LOL. I think Chloe is simply turned on by intelligence. It's so sad that these shows aren't real, Chloe is not Jensen. I also would hate if I had friends my age who dumped me, which they did, but for other girl friends. Lotta us wanted kids in our 20s for some reason. I think Chloe is like a paper towel, a leading brand, cleans up all the mess. You're done with the mess, it goes in the garbage. It's what it is, it's a mess..
Looking for an Apology
Well, here's 1, as I've been trying to recover. I should just mind my own business. That social group today seemed to have helped for now.
Problem
I tried getting away from home so Ellen would not follow my blog, though it gives me pleasure. I didn't get in a movie and kicked outta theater. I don't wanna be a glob for others to waste time on. I require a real life experience.
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Problem
My parents need not be involved in certain ways, like a big blast on my wit in private with them.
All I experience is guilt to be happy about someone who gives me affection somehow.
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All I experience is guilt to be happy about someone who gives me affection somehow.
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Problem
So, I have to accept Ellen won't be nice, like Burton and Depp, a lot of ways/times. I didn't start it. If she was kidding, I forgot to ignore. She sure gets upset for nothing. No offense.
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Unimpressed
I was called a person I didn't want to be.
I DON'T HAVE ANY PROBLEMS.
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I DON'T HAVE ANY PROBLEMS.
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Problem
Ellen keeps insinuating I'm a little tan Asian kid. I already said I don't take that. She shouldn't care what I say. If she likes that stuff, so be it for her. A light just turned on I wasn't sure I noticed before.
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TV
This morning saw some of Colbert, this afternoon some of Bethenny.
Also threw up. The food was squeezing and hurting my spine. Not as bad this time. Ate some since.
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Also threw up. The food was squeezing and hurting my spine. Not as bad this time. Ate some since.
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Should I?
Is my time being wasted? I haven't even accomplished having a blog nor working on my college major. I get "corny" drama from the day of people in my life all making it so I cannot achieve alone apart from with them. Talking to each other all tackily like it's so bemusing against me.
Issue
I wasn't even talking to Ellen, and she doesn't listen to me cuz she thinks she's popular and she's racist somehow.
I was communicating for my blog about ^what^ she did, pretended ^something^ about me.
She was acting mean like I was no good and she was something.
I was communicating for my blog about ^what^ she did, pretended ^something^ about me.
She was acting mean like I was no good and she was something.
Upset
If Ellen stopped communicating to me, don't I have a right to be sad .. or rebel? Probably to her rebelling would mean being mean. I mean like making a plaque. Because all I did was I said you ain't got nothing on me meanie, and she figured she can think it's written to her when I didn't reveal it was and .. she thinks it's my initial reaction in thinking this, when in fact I felt that but didn't mean that, didn't say I meant that. I think she was taken aback because she lives by numbers 1-9. It's her show, and she can decide to do it, but she can't make me feel guilty for doing it. How dare she.. see she'd not like me to continue. That's the kind of thing, and she just stops. I think she's just racist. -I'll think of all she done for me, but I wish I hadn't yet even met- which isn't a good thing, neither. I've made suggestions for her to talk to others but remember me.. which didn't mean anything to her she made up I found|figured.. that she spends too much on me and I now question the reasoning behind something of the essence of it. Well, my life is on my blog, so whatever she does. I found it thoughtful, but I mean I know she wants people to be happy and then she's happy.. she doesn't wanna go and die with the world so bad. She gets upset if I don't love and respect her. I was really mad, and that's something she doesn't want. I found what she said 1st insulting. I think people get I am not a kid and don't wanna be punished. I mean, I am too old to pick up, is that the point?!! I have more of a care for adults. I would not wanna meet Ellen cuz she'd say I'm too old to be her kid and someone else-ISN'T. There would be a spark and calculation that she has some better traits than me, and it'd go to her. Well, okay, you can read through this now getting a bit lengthy. I just wanted to say I felt what I felt but I didn't feel that's "what" I wrote. I can kinda see it now. It wasn't anything but a feeling. I am insulted I guess by something I agreed to, that I be treated worse than others. Can you explain that? Now, I'm bad supposedly? That's what I don't take with anyone, that suddenly maybe the bad people were mistreated so that means good people go to Hell. That's a sin. I think Tim Burton and Johnny Depp did it. Remember? They tell other bad people to be comfortable and have an intellectual drug on people who are not famous who are good? Then racism?? What do you think of Ellen saying I was bad at 1st.. what was it? I know she doesn't have something going and is afraid to click with others. I didn't say literally she has nothing going. I can't imagine her talking to me and someone else - it'd just be a competition. I found it like horrific she like "plastered" herself up as being nice to me. Yer mean, guess ye own up. But she wasn't. She acted like being mean to me was nice. There was a secret message. It was just too much, not used to stuff or letting go some. Rubbing in like I'm behavioral exemplified trash like she just messed up on me. Why don't we tie her on a stake and get her to admit she is flawed? No offense!! So.. this was sad. I didn't continue and felt bad and she just got mad. I was mad after supper, though, so what? I don't need to be weird for anyone. It's just too bad she doesn't take apologies. I'm not even talking to her face. I'm describing something important. She was bugging me to make me look bad. She is oddly nice. I hope things are going well for her..
For Later
I'm getting machines, 1 that turns plain fruit into an ice cream and 1 that turns it into juice, called a juicer. You can also use veggies, often used with juicers. I'm also using my allowance to eat out. I found cool food at the grocery, too, started making wraps. I so want a Muffalatta. It's Italian-New Orleanian.
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